There can be joy in the midst of trials

Iv been debating writing this post for a while now and decided I am just going to do it. I think it is important to share the struggles we are going through. In the world of Pinterest and Facebook I think its really easy to become down. You only see the highlights of peoples lives and everything they are doing great. Now there is nothing wrong with that. I actually LOVE to see everyone's fun projects and all the things they have accomplished and its so fun that we have a way to share our triumphs. But sometimes I think we look at what other people are good at and get down on our selves that we are not living up to the pinterest standard.
Ok now that my little rant about Pinterest is over. I'm going to tell you about why right now my house Pinteresting and that is okay.

As iv posted before my husband was Diagnosed with A.S. I would spell the whole thing out but there are lots of letters and I can barely pronounce is so we just call it A.S. but hey the Drs do too. Well when he was first diagnosed he was in the "early stages" of his disease which at the time we thought were bad but now we realize he didn't have it so bad after all. About a month ago he woke up one morning and his legs were paralyzed, like full on epidural couldn't move them. thankfully we have a few different sets and kinds of crutches. It was really scary the Dr have warned us this could happen but we were living in the it will never happen to me phase.  He received a priesthood blessing and within the hour he could feel his legs again and by the end of the night he was able to move them and put a little bit of weight on them! Now it seems to be happening 1-2 a week. Its a scary thing and we don't like it but In a way I'm grateful because it is preparing us for the day when he will be in a wheelchair. Its been allowing us to get used to the idea and find ways to deal with it.

This really has been quite the change for Our family. He isn't able to work because he gets sick so often and he never knows what days he can walk and what days he cant. He's applied for a few jobs but its discouraging no one wants to hire someone who may not be able to do his job the way they want some days. We have been really blessed though. My husbands parents own a company check them out Thurgoodies.com They have let us kind of take over to help meet our financial means. This has been where I have really seen the Lord working his hand in our lives every time we pray to be able to make our payment that is due The next day we are bombarded with orders and make just enough to cover what ever bill is due. My sweet mother in-law even jokes now that she knows we must have been praying because the are tons of orders again. So Thank you to all the friends and family that spoil their missionaries and college kids. You have been an answer to our prayers!

On top of all this I thought it would be a good idea to keep going to school this semester. I know I may have lost my mind Its been tough trying to juggle being a mom of 3 ages 3 and under, working, and going to school. But I have been blessed with great family,an AWESOME friend who just happens to be my visiting teacher, and a truly AMAZING husband. He keeps me grounded and is truly my best friend and amazes my daily how he keeps a truly remarkable attitude despite what he is going through. This is where I have found my Joy. My trials have brought me closer to my Heavenly Father than I have ever been before, and fore that I am grateful for everything we are going through. Is it hard YES but I wouldn't have learned the many lessons I have learned with out going through them. While we are still in the midst of our trials I know we will come out TRIUMPHANT, we will be blessed, and the Lord will not forsake us.

So my house may be a disaster right now what do you expect with a preschooler a toddler and a infant I may not have a house full of cutesie crafts I've made and we may have nights where dinner is a sandwich or a bowl of cereal Addy thinks those are the best nights though I have a great family and we have buckets of fun and laughs together and in the end that's what matters.