Im back!

The last few years have been pretty rough for me health wise. I was super sick and it took 8 months and going to all sorts of Specialist multiple times a week and having numerous test done to figure out that I had gastro paresis. I was put on a strict diet and a medication which helped for a while but six months later I started having neurological problems that they decided was most likely fibromyalgia caused by the medications that they put me on for my stomach.  Well right after I found out what was the culprit for all my symptoms Bryce and I found out we were going to have baby. I quickly called my neurologist and told her the news. She said that this was probably the best thing that could have happened and pregnancy actually cured a lot of neurological problems and that there would only be a twenty percent chance of it coming back.  So even though we were not planning on little miss Addy I call her my miracle baby because having her took away all my medical problems and she has brought so much joy and happiness to my life.
  Then came the pregnancy I was sick all the way in to the third trimester and when I finally started feeling better I fell on my stomach went into early labor and was put on bed rest for six weeks. I am so thankful it was only six weeks though I feel so bad for the women that are put on bed rest for most of there pregnancy I know I would go insane!  Thankfully Adaline decided to stay in until 38 weeks and was born healthy and strong.  I on the other hand had some serious complications. I am so thankful for the men in my life and that they are worthy to carry the Priesthood. Because I truly believe that if it wasn’t for the priesthood blessing I received I may not be here today. It took me a little longer than most people to recover due to my complications. But I am grateful for my friends and family that helped me and for those that helped watch Adaline why I recovered. 
I have been dealing with postpartum depression for the last Seven months and trying to deal with feelings of resentment to those around me, not feeling like an adequate mother or wife, and feeling like the reason we are struggling is my fault due to my medical bills I racked up.  I am so thankful for Bryce he pretty much took care of our baby by him self for the first two weeks after she was born, did all the cleaning and cooked numerous meals for us. He has dealt with my depression and getting angry for no reason knowing that it was my hormones and instead of defending himself like most people would do him was just there to comfort me and knew that I really didn’t mean any of it. He truly is an amazing husband and I am so grateful for everything that he does for me I love him with all my heart and truly don’t know what I would do with out him. 
Well I am glad to say that I AM BACK!! I finally feel like I did over two years ago before all of medical conditions started.  I feel happy, and content with where I am in my life. I may not have a lot but I do have an AMAZING husband, a beautiful daughter who brings joy to my life, food on the table, a roof over my head and clothes on my back.  That is all I need to be happy. I hope people don’t think that I wrote this to get sympathy because that is not what I am after.  I simply wanted to express my thankfulness. I truly am blessed.